In over my head

Hello again; can you tell I'm wondering which way to go? I find that I don't think I'm expert enough to write anything that matters or that anyone wants to read. But putting that to the side, let's see........................Innocence................................................how sweet it is.

I'm reminded again and again on my walks with Scout, many that I take more for me than for him, of innocence. With all the blooming and esteem that the lavender and rosemary and growing vegetables like chard exude, I am reminded of how beautiful and easy innocence is.

Simplicity
Gullibility
Unworldliness
Greenness

I can remember having those characteristics, and maybe I still have them, but I pretend not to. Over the weekend, I spouted more than once to more than one person just how complicated life is. Read any non-fiction book and you succumb to the complexity of whatever the subject is.

But really who wants to be unworldly?

If you're reading this, you've probably tried to be more knowing and worldly than you really are. I know I do, and I wonder why I do that? Insecurity!?

There's a lot I don't know and books are one way to find out. I am reading lots of books. They lie all around my house; I bring them upstairs, and then need them downstairs.

One :: Diet for a Hot Planet is a new book out by Anna Lappe, the daughter of the doyen Francis Moore Lappe who wrote Diet for a Small Planet published in 1971.

Two :: Raw Food::Life Force Energy by Natalia Rose which I bought two years ago at TJMaxx at a reduced price. It's a wonder of a book; if you know of a good juicer, let me know. I've been looking at ebay auctions; lost out on one I would have liked, so I seek further.

Three :: Gardening with Wildlife, A Complete Guide to Attracting and Enjoying The Fascinating Creatures In Your Backyard ... A National Wildlife Federation book that is not on Amazon. Here's where we are :: "June has been called the high tide of nature's year. Every form of wildlife seems to be active. Sit on the bench in your garden, stay quiet, listen, and keep your eyes wide open. As you 'hear life murmur and see it glisten,' you'll be surprised how much of the nature lore pictured in this book you can discover for yourself."

In different ways, they are all my favorites right now. And having books is one more way I seek knowing so that I can pretend I know things I don't.

I'm in over my head, though, lacking innocence.